So Deb put her first prompt up today for the NY NY project. Now I have to admit I have been thinking about goals and things I would like to aspire to and I all I can come up with is: 'stop feeling ick' - which is brilliant in terms of its specificity and it's measurable *snort* however it does gain points on it's being relatively attainable and realistic (sort of). You can't start building houses if all you have is sand and mud as the foundations.
So to stop feeling ick, it is tme to start with the small stuff:
I already have a head start in terms of having tidied my room, but it has been about a month and a 1/2 since I did a proper cleaning out. So here is what I plan to do:
1) Stele of Jeu/calling on Agathodaimon/asking the Logos to shine the light upon me and my space to cleanse it from unwanted and corrupting energies
* The whole 'make all spirits subject unto me' bit can help me in shoving out the unwanted energies/spirits/larvae and what not lurking about
2) Solar work - opening a solar vortex (AND CLOSING IT AFTERWARDS)
(using something inspired from FR RO's Astral Warriors Handbook)
* This is the equivalent of opening the curtains and watching all the cockroaches and rats scuttle away
3) Saturn work - defining the boundaries
* Now the solar work will only chuck stuff out, using Saturn work will help define the boundaries between what's in and what's out.
4) I then use sea salt, Uncrossing Oil, Van Van Oil, Basil and Hyssop and put them in a small pot, pour boiling water over them and start cleaning the walls/windows/doors from the back of the room/house to the front. Whilst doing this I chant something as I am cleaning out - psalm 23 is always a good one
5) Propriating - making offerings and inviting the right things back in
* I generally then use frankincense oil and a candle and make an offering to the protective spirits/ancestors/Hecate and generally make peace with all and any
On the decluttering:
I have to admit, when I first heard that my first instinct was like 'No! I can't do that! What if I *need* something?' and now after much thought...it's still like that. Although admittedly I can think of a few things - clothes that don't fit and I don't wear - that I would not mind parting with. But when it comes to books... they're my precious.
However, a valient effort will be made to make some progress on the decluttering.
On Time Management
Gosh - my time is being eaten up by so many other things that I am using to distract myself and my work is suffering for it. Not only does am I distracting myself from my grief, but part of me rebels against my work - it isn't what I want to do and I cannot get out of it yet. If I am honest I am scared to do what I - there are so many expectations upon me. But what I do spend my time on does nourish me (it just isn't what I'm suppose to be doing)
On Rocks
I am currently dealing with ongoing grief, stress, anger channeled inward and a bad bout of seasonal depression. So yes, I am clinging to a few rocks. I am does planning on doing some ongoing Jupiter and Venusian work to relieve the worst of it. My morning practice is now including a mantra to Lord Ganesh which has really had a positive effect on my mood.
I'm so sorry that you are grieving right now, Bea. But I'm glad you're doing the work you're doing and I hope that it helps you in your process. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteThank you Deb and thank you for setting this up - honestly it could not have come at a better time :)
ReplyDeleteHey -- I deal with depression of that sort as well and I've dealt with it for a long time. A sort of general depression but it does get exacerbated when the sunlight diminishes during the fall/winter.
ReplyDeleteSunlight simulator clock lamps help a bit. I have one where I can set when the lamp comes on (it tricks your brain a bit into thinking it's the summer sunrise). It just looks like a normal LED reading lamp or something. Naturebright is the company.
Along with the Jupiter and Venus work, perhaps consider adding in some Solar work? Solar rites are said to blast out darkness.
I would even put probably put Solar work above Jupiter and Venus stuff, but the things attributed to those two planets can definitely help as well.
I've thought about getting one of those lamps actually, I have heard good things about them I might see if I can get one for the new year.
ReplyDeleteYou're right Solar work would be better for banishing the blues within, then I could use the other two planets for improving external circumstances surrounding.
Thank you for your advice and on the recommendation of the company