On Bad Choices

March has been a difficult month for me. I don't do the whole 'celebrate the changing of the seasons' with any big ritual or anything, but I have to say if I did - I would go all out for the Spring Equinox. It has been gorgeous weather in the UK but this month I have the most challenging weeks yet. This year I spent day in bed, catching up on sleep.

My difficulties all came down to a series of bad choices, as most are want to do. My difficulties stemmed from poor management of resources - such as time, neglecting health, and unrealistic expectations of what I could achieve when at a low point.

I have learnt that a part of choosing the targets to shift in magick needs to include an assessment of what state you are in.

I had a very important presentation to give, but I didn't feel ready enough to do it - so I cast a spell to try and get out of it, basically asked for it to be postponed a week or two. That's a pretty big target to shift and I was not fulfilling my basic physiological needs - I wasn't getting nearly enough food and sleep to be tackling anything big and my efforts would have been better directed to getting myself into a state where I could achieve these things.

Needless to say I failed at moving the date of the presentation, and it was not exactly the best one I have ever done. My efforts would have been better
spent creating a field of charm and confidence around me, calling down a spirit to help me win my audience over, creating a talisman to help - and breaking out my mad NLP skillz.

So now I will take advantage of the waxing moon and the glorious spring weather to start building myself back up - sleep schedule is off, but I have access to more food and drink (today was the first day of the holidays and I have gone back home, I am currently writing this with a cup of tea and a box of flapjacks by my side).

Currently I am going through my books to find inspiration for tech to get my back to a healthy point where I can start battling again, expect posts to come about the results to come.