Update on what I am doing

I have been at work with many things and as many drafts and half written posts I have I thought I would condense things down:

• A couple of weeks ago I did a charity shop raid where I found wonderful pieces of clothes, office skirts, blouses, delicatey cardigan things and dresses for pittance (including a marvelous red dress which would have been £60 but I nabbed it for a tenner and it has been proven rather...lucky...shall we say) 
• I have also noticed the quality of my work improving when I change into work clothes instead of jeans (the piece of clothing I cling to the most). I also managed to overcome my fear of being mocked for wearing rather shorter skirts than I would have when I paired them up with a lovely blazer
• Because my lovely friends have been quite disgusted with the amount of time they have been locked up with cells and infection protocols there have been many invitations to clubs and pubs and the mojo I worked to get me more male attention worked! I was waltzed (literally - waltzed - off of my feet three times in the last month. These things never used to happen!)
• Spirituality wise I put my shoulder to the wheel and have almost completed my months offerings to the Angels who rule the Mansions of the Moon. It is a simple rite, totally stripped down because I have not the space nor access to proper materials to go full blast. It seems to be working though.
• Ancestor offerings have been kept on a regular update and offerings made to planetary spirits. Hekate gets her share as well.
• I have run into walls when I am doing exercises though, I have found myself getting rather sleepy or low on energy when I try something that should be rather easy.
• Mood wise, I am happier. So much so. I mean not everyday, not all the time. But I feel more me than I did this time three months ago. Not some empty shell. I'm not sure how long this will last, but I am grateful for how I am feeling now. I tend to get a different reaction from people now, relationships are a lot easier

One last thing. I am *hopefully* planning a trip to London soon. For my birthday last year I got a chance to see Much Ado About Nothing, playing in West London, there was a bit of a hoo-hah but I ended up spending the whole day there and I cannot begin to describe how utterly brilliant just being there was. I didn't get to see half of what I wanted to see (British Museum being the main thing) but I long to go back.

It is a city where stuff happened - still happens - and the inspiration I got from it was like jet fuel.

Anyways, it has been rather a sappy post filled with talk of dresses and boys and cities. But a post needed to be done.

Repeat after me: 'I am not Batman...I am not Batman' - NYNY Experiment

Hello, I haven't posted for a while, but I can assure you much has been happening and much progress has been made.

As well as new super secret goals I may reveal shortly (I pretty much live by the whole, review, analyse and and update model of goal setting) I thought I would start on this week's post

Deb is so right when she talks about synchronocities in this project, while I haven't been posting my work up here, I have noticed the similar energy levels thing she talks about.

More on synchronicities. A series of odd coincidences occured whereby my friend and I were discussing an awesome talk from TED on vulnerability and I ended up reading a poignant letter in this awesome advice column

However, the discussiong with my best friend on the TED topic brought up something I thought was relevant.

'You need to be less Virgo'  she said


'What do you mean? Virgos are awesome!'

'Yes, but your brand of Virgo-ism means you view your emotions and needs as messy, ugly things that need to be tidied away and never shown to anyone'

'Well I wouldn't put it quite like that'

'Well I would, last time you ended up crying in front of me you could not stop apologising for it'

Suffice to say, what she says is true and in the spirit of becoming more vulnerable I will explain. I have a stupid irrational fear of asking people for help or telling them what I want because fear they will think I am a selfish git and leave me, it is far easier for me to type this than explain - with words - to my closest friends.

But if someone calls me and asks me to do something? I will do it, because I feel I need to keep earning their friendship by helping them whenever I can. Truth is if I didn't have friends who were quite intuitive it could cause a lot of problems in our relationship, hell it has caused problems in the past.

Moral of the story: use your words, express your needs and let your friends help you, we can only grow stronger as a whole if we help each other up. I sure will try to remember to do this myself.

And in no way should this song be your theme tune